Archive for November, 2005

M.E = S.U.R.V.I.V.O.R

Monday, November 14th, 2005

A fren mailed this to me….and realised how beautifully well this poem has described wad i was/am feeling…things hasnt been goot for awhile back…but am now slowly walking out of it…with still a lot of love in it…am slowly picking up the pieces all over again…and thanks to some fren(s) this time…im surviving "alone" all over again….time may not be right now…certain things may not have turned out the way its "supposed" to be…but believe that the future will be brighter and each dae is getting better…climbing a mountain is nv ez..sometimes we fall back a little..sometimes we’re left on our own along the journey…but if we nv give up…we will eventually reach the top and thats where we can enjoy the beautiful scenery of sunrise and sunset…this i truly believe and with it id carry this belief to take me thru the down times, be it with frens or alone….and someday id get to enjoy the view at the summit..with the special ones who have travelled this journey w me…the fighting spirit lives on forever..have always been a fighter and will always be….cheerz =p

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Over for now (only now):

I knew that someday it would have to end.
I knew Id eventually have to go back to calling you a friend,
Its killing me that now that the day has come,
If its for the best then where is this pain coming from?

I know that deep inside, this is what I had to do,
But its breaking my heart to walk away from you,
Im trying my best to appear strong,
But its hard when a part of me says that in your arms is where I belong.

I still love you with all my heart,
Thats not going to change even though were apart,
You were my first love and my first kiss,
There are so many of our special times that Im going to miss.

All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true,
But for now from a distance is where Ill be loving you,
I think you need me as a friend to help you through,
Because there are things I cant control that are hurting you.

Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be,
But for now please dont stop loving me,
Even though Im not yours Ill still be here,
With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear,
The story of love can be quicker than the blink of an eye,
But our story wont be over until the day that we die,
Until we meet again.

-by benjamin tan (klang msia)

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Man’s Bestest Fren

Sunday, November 6th, 2005

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I’m not there to see;
The sun will rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
The way you did today,
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me.
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name
And petted me with her hand.
She said my place was ready,
In Heaven far above,
And that I’d have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But, as I turned to heel away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I never thought
That I would have to die.

I had so much to live for,
So many sits and downs to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought about our lives together,
I know you must be sad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
Remember how I’d nudge your hand,
And poke you with my nose?
The frisbee I would gladly chase,
The bad guy, I’d "bark and hold".

If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for awhile,
I’d wag my tail and kiss you,
Just so I could see you smile.
But, then I fully realized,
That this could never be;
For emptiness and memories
Will take the place of me.
And when I thought of treats and toys,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when I did,
My dog-heart filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through Heaven’s gate,
And felt so much at home;
As God looked down and smiled at me,
From His beautiful golden throne.

He said, "This is eternity,
And now we welcome you,
Today your life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last;
For you see, each days’ the same day,
There’s no longing for the past.
Now you have been so faithful,
So trusting, loyal and true;
Though there were times you did things,
You knew you shouldn’t do.
But good dogs are forgiven,
And now at last you’re free;
So won’t you sit here by my side,
And wait right here with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we’re far apart.

- Author Unknown -

Got this from a blog i was reading…sounds quite sad…but quite meaningful..i guess at the end of the dae…dog’s are man’s bestest fren and partner…it teaches one to be humane and yet it neva fails….*sigh*….

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